Wednesday, January 23, 2013


I guess it's time to post for the first time in 2013.  To be honest I have been dreading it.  To be completely honest I never really wanted 2013 to come.  This year scares me.  This is THE year.  The year Cambry starts sc..sch...schooo... schooo.... schooooo. You get the idea.  Even when I start to say the word, or apparently type it, it makes me cry.  2012 was so dreamy with two kids that I got to play with all the time, and we went where ever we wanted whenever we wanted to.  No schedule, no one dictating what we did except us, and certainly no one went to school.  I wanted to hit the rewind button and do it all over again and for the rest of my life because I feel like it can't get better than all of that awesomeness.  If every January 1st was January 1, 2012 I would be so happy.  I know Cambry is going to be great at school, and I'm sure she is going to love it and I know somewhere deep inside of me their is a piece of me that is excited for her to go on this adventure.  I think that feeling is just covered up by the crazy part of me that lays in bed at night and cries because this is THE year that it's going to happen.  For now I have realized that just because I stop blogging about our life doesn't mean that our life is not happening, so I might as well document it as we go along.  The girls where riding their bikes and kept looking behind them to see where they had been and I found myself saying "Don't look behind you or you will crash, look ahead so you are ready for what's coming!"  So I guess I need to take my own advice and look ahead.